I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

National Service

i feel its best not to put names, as it was hard for some people.

for those who got chosen, and is devastated about NS, no worries alright.. keep strong :)

and for those who dont know if youre being chosen, or not.
you can check it out, by clicking on this link >> National Service

P.S., i wasnt chosen :)

Friday, June 26, 2009

In loving memories of Michael Jackson

Rest In Peace Michael.
August 29, 1958 - June 26, 2009

You will always remain in our hearts...


Tuesday, June 23, 2009


Listening to :
Addicted by Electric Valentine feat Jeffree Star

im craving for chocolates! its been a long time since i ate any :(

countdown to college : 13 days

Monday, June 22, 2009

Don and his gorgeous smile :)

Listening to :
The Outsider by A Perfect Circle

Sadly i cant seem to take snapshots of his oh so loving shweet smile at the exact moment it happened. Well, at least theres a few :)

Ive been having a rough week, and Don has made my day :) He has made me smile continuously, and blush till my whole face turn tomato bright red. hahaa.

thanks, love.


im a part of you just as youre a part of me ♥

Yesh, its my dearest Kee Wei's 18th Birthday!
finally legal ;)

before i met you, i wasnt myself. i was lost, and you were there to help me through all the hard times. you bought happiness back into my life. above all, youre simply amazing. you are indeed more than words can say. i love you.

For once in my life, a part of me doesn’t have to try to be happy. When you’re around, when I know you’re there, it just happens. You’re someone, who’s everything to me. Someone I know I can rely on, and trust. You’re someone whom I can always count on, no matter what. Never once have I regretted knowing you. And to know you more each time, its one of the greatest thing I’ve to do. You made me realized, though, how fucked up life can be, it’s only as complicated as you make it. Life’s never the same, and that’s just how it is. I thought, I died; then you came along and bought me back. I am alive, because of you. If I ever were to leave this life, it would mean that I were to leave you too. When I am at my weakest, you’re the only one who could help me. You taught me so much, and I appreciate everything. You mean so much to me, I wouldn’t know what I’ll do if anything ever happens to you. And no matter what happens… I always hope good things will come to you no matter how many stars I have to wish upon to make that happen. To have you safe, to keep you warm, to have you here. Who knew you would mean so much to me =3 It has been awhile where I have trouble trusting anyone, but with you, I have no doubts. I know you’ll keep the promises you made, because never once, have you failed me. Never once, have you judged me. There is no one who can ever take your place in my heart. I love you for every comfort you gave and for all whom you are to me.

Youll always be a part of me
Im part of you indefinitely
Boy dont you know you cant escape me
Ooh darling 'cause youll always be
my baby..


Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Like Romeo and Juliet, Fate Divides Us

listening to :
Hurt (Quiet) by Nine Inch Nails

Presenting Nine Inch Nails!

20 years in the music scene ;O !!!
their tour to Singapore will mark their last concert. (WTFF) D:

the ever Godfather of Rock ;D

Trent Reznor !!!

gaah.. although the pre-sales tickets are all sold out, i wouldnt mind getting the standard tickets.
i really do hope im able to go for their ever so awesome concert.

i want to be able to see Trent Reznor's face.
i want to scream his name so loud, he might hear; only me.
i want to feel him, i wanna be his sweat.

and not see NIN from afar..

... you get my drift..

i am, after all, a huge fan of Nine Inch Nails ;D

P.S., Happy #100 post! Lol.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Let's have som fun, this beat is sick. I wanna take a ride on your disco stick.

two of my favourite artists, GaGa & Manson - has joined forces and brought out a new remix to Lady GaGa's LoveGame ;D

to listen? pls click >> here


P-p-p-poker face, f-f-fuck her face.

yesh, our very own Lady GaGa will also be performing LIVE in Singapore, on August 12th - two days after Nine Inch Nails, as these two would be performing at Fort Canning Park.


I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.


one of my very favourite bands, Nine Inch Nails - will be performing in friggin Singpore!
i so wanna go!

AHHHH! i can just scream and die faint right this moment!

P.S., anyone wanna tag along? :)


that's how i need you in my life ♥

listening to :
Pero Me Acuerdo De Ti by Christina Aguilera

like the stars need the sky ;

and the river

needs it's rain..

like an eagle needs it's wings ;

and the fire needs it's flames..

like the sun needs the day ;

and the night needs the moon..

like the air that i breathe...

that's how i need you

P.S. - Kee Wei, this one's for you..

Monday, June 15, 2009

my holidays are depressing..

listening to :
A Thousand Miles By David Archuleta

ill say it again - my holidays are really depressing.

not that i dont appreciate hanging out, watching movies, and shopping or chill out with my frens and family - i do. but i dont think i can keep up with the same routine till this month runs end. btw, its either the same routine or im stuck at home rotting, and doing dunno what to harm myself.

my mom finally gave me a lil more freedom, this time. i can go out more often.. sure, but there's always conditions and rules! hmmm.
im glad tho.. cause its something, than nothing right?

i wish i have the $$$.. i really wanna travel. be it - anywhere. cant think of a specific location at the moment.
sighs.. no harm in dreaming..

my darling cousins! hurry up and come home! i miss you! and this time, im making sure we're spending more time. hee.

countdown to college : 21 days

Saturday, June 13, 2009

argh .

now that i dont want you..

now that i dont care..

now that ive finally moved on..

you wanna come back??

fuck you.


Friday, June 12, 2009

surprise! surprise!

listening to :
Sink And Die by Scary Kids Scaring Kids

ive been accepted to IACT college!!!
*jumps for joy* ;D

aaahh.. happy! happy!
i cant stop smiling right now! ;D ;D ;D

college; a new beginning, another chapter in my life.

countdown to college : 24 days

Night at the Museum 2: Battle of the Smithsonian

listening to :
Bottle Pop by The Pussycat Dolls ft. Snoop Dogg

[click on the above picture to enlarge]

In the world's biggest museum something huge is about to go down!
When everything comes to life there's one man for the job:

Ben Stiller

hilarious yet adventures..

'aww' moments..

and not forgetting, the 'evil' Kah Mun Rah

Amelia Earhart: Do you know why I became a pilot?
Larry Daley: I have no idea.
Amelia Earhart: For the fun of it. Why else would anyone do anything?

gotta rate this movie as 8/10


Thursday, June 11, 2009

may you rest in peace, my dear friend

Ben, oh, Ben..
its been a year since you went away..
memories of you are still in our thoughts
my dear friend, thank you for helping me through all those difficult times
i am glad to have known you

i miss you, take care.


Wednesday, June 10, 2009

F My Life!

listening to :
A Movie Script Ending by Death Cab For Cutie

yays! the desirable book is finally out! ;D


Monday, June 8, 2009

bad days are good times to get pierced ;)

listening to :
Intoxication by Disturbed

should i get more piercings?

cause, you see..
lip piercing has just recently caught my attention. hmm..
im liking the idea of it ;)


crazy over tattoos!

listening to :
Eyes On Fire by Blue Foundation

i love this ambigram tattoo the most!
Sean + Abbie.
ill have this tattoo-ed on my right wrist.
with the word Sean facing me, while Abbie facing the other way.

i want this on the back of my neck.
i finally found the exact design i dreamed of and wanted =3

'YouAreTheSmellBeforeRain, YouAreTheBloodInMyVeins'
ill have these words tattoo-ed on the exact spot as the above picture ;)

and yeah, the same thing goes for this.
the exact design on the exact spot.

OH! not to mention, one more tattoo on my shoulder blade.
hm, i shall keep the design to myself, for now. heh

oh faarrrk. now im in thin line between getting a tattoo[s] and getting disowned.


Sunday, June 7, 2009

photo shoots

6th June 2009

my dearest cousin- Ada, i proudly introduce you to the new kittens of the cat family, lol.

the following are pictures of your sister.

+ Callie

the end