I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.

Sunday, May 30, 2010


Listening to :
Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy

You, were everything to me. You, gave me the thrills i always needed. You made me feel alive, and you were the best thing i never asked for, but you had to leave me. I hate the fact that i love you so much it hurts, for every time we've spent - everything, it all reminds me of you. How am i supposed to move on when you gave so much to remember? How am i supposed to let you go when youre all i ever wanted to hold on to. You were every other part of me, and ill never forget that day. I never had the chance to say i love you, i never had the chance to say goodbye. The day you died, i lost my soul.

You, were almost perfect. You helped me through all the rough patches, and with your sweet words and comfort, i was fine. I miss the music you remind me of, i miss your ability to make me laugh, i miss the fact that i was strong for you. You were the reason i lived. And right now, youre no longer the person i loved. Im sorry, i didnt mean to ruin anything, i just want the good times back. You, knew me better than anyone else, and somehow youre not the same anymore. I miss you.

You were the reason i smiled again, you were the reason i love. I love you, for always fighting for me, for us. I never thought that, this time, you'd have given up on me. You said i was your better half, you said i make you happy, but why did you have to hurt me? Im sorry, for always pushing you away, for being a heartless soul. But ill always love you, now and till the end. I'd have married you, i thought i could. You meant more to me than any one ive ever loved at all.

You, are such insensitive fools. You said youll never leave me, but who do you think i was, new?
Oh, wait, i was the fool.


Thursday, May 27, 2010

Beer, oh how ive missed you (;

Listening to :
Need You Now by Lady Antebellum

24th May 2010

Yays! Exams' over! Hehee
Okay so, the mass comm batch decided to celebrate. What's better to enjoy than beer? (;
Movie during noon, we watched the Bounty Hunter; then dinner was at Winter Warmers, and drinks at Library.

those who arent in mass comm like Danial, Teri, Aeries, Azrin and Suthesh joined too.


Danial asking for some chicha's number.

and there was a lot of kissing going on :P

So after we were done drinking..
Caely, Julian, Suthesh and i headed to SK Corner to meet up with Ian.

my beloved ex-husband (:


Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Gathering with classmates of 1st semester

Listening to :
I Feel You by 3 Doors Down

18th May 2010

It was a last min plan, but most of us managed to meet up. Seriously saying, my 1st sem in college with these bunch of people has been the best ever. So, we met up at Sunway Pyramid; had Papa John's for lunch, then off to redbox, and Kim Gary for dinner.

Anyhoos, pictures shall do the talking ey? Credit goes to Julian Chong.

Julian blending in x)

John, the special appearance of the day. Im glad he made it (:

great time, awesome company (;


Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Rest In Peace, Uncle Allen.

Listening to :
I Miss You by Jamestown Story

7th May 2010

it took me some time to digest the news. i wasnt having much out of that day and i didnt want to believe what i heard.
i hope youre in a better place now. ill remember you, i miss you.

Rest In Peace

Donald Allen Bertram Joseph


Sunday, May 23, 2010

Marilyn Manson is ♥

Listening to :
In For The Kill by La Roux

"I fear being like everyone I hate, I fear failure, I fear losing control.
I love balancing between chaos and control with everything I do.
I always have a fear of going one way or another, getting lost in something, or losing everything to get lost in.
And I fear being a completely acceptable sheep in society.

"I never said to be like me, I say to be like you and make a difference."

"Part of me is afraid to get close to people because I'm afraid that they're going to leave."

quotes above are by the awesomest Marilyn Manson.


Monday, May 17, 2010

I just need to feel, that what we have is real.

I'm trying not to think about
All the things you did before,
But sometimes it all just gets to me.
I can't take it anymore.
I'll stay with you,
But remember to
Be careful what you do,
Cause I'm not bulletproof.


Friday, May 14, 2010

Still me.

Listening to :
Edge of Desire by John Mayer

my curls are back.


Thursday, May 13, 2010

New look?

Listening to :
Walking On Air by Kerli

"Different you but still you." - Danial Shan

this is the colour under sunlight, i think.

so, what do you think?
cause till this point, im still not sure whether i like it or hate it, yet.


Monday, May 10, 2010

I could really use a wish right now..

Listening to :
Airplanes by B.o.B feat Hayley Williams

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now


Saturday, May 1, 2010

Everything will be fine..

Listening to :
My Song by Jerry Cantrell

ive been doing a lot of thinking
my mind is still running

and i cant stop wondering

about all the stuff that's been happening

© Abbie Lyann Joseph Leong