I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.

Monday, February 8, 2010

It's my birthday, yeah!

Listening to :
All Of You by Vertical Horizon





first of, thank you people for taking me out, spending time with me - be it lunch, dinner or just a simple yamcha or drinking session. i appreciate every moment!


secondly, thank you for all the surprise cakes and cupcakes!


thirdly, i never knew coming up with a birthday wish would have you guys put the effort to find and buy em'. thanks so much!




my dearest, you are all beyond great to me and i love each and every one of you!







im 8teen today!




xoxo

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Youre the first, the last, my everthing.

Listening to :
You Give Me Something by James Morrison







I want you to know how difficult it was to get you something, how even more difficult it was to find the utmost perfect words to say and write it to you. I mean, what do you give someone who means the world to you? How can you find a material object that can convey your love when you can’t even find the words?

My love is all that I can give.

I thought I could recycle what I wrote that’s held close to me, my diary, but it wouldn’t be the same. I thought thoroughly for the right words to say to you, a love letter I thought I’d write, but I couldn’t. My god, i suck with words. I tried finding for the most prefect poems, but all that ive found wasn’t good enough.

However, I came up with something. Its not great, but its me. It came to mind that ive gotta make you something that’s right from my heart. I made you a card. I made you a card filled with lyrics of love songs which reminds me of you. I didn’t wanna put all the love songs there is, hence, for future usage eyy? Haha. So, yeah. There I was (in the college library), cutting out paper, pasting it onto the card using eky wet glue (when i could've used double-sided tape), making you something I hardly ever do. I tried my best anyhow to make something sweet, something meaningful for you.

In the card, there are love songs, and famous love quotes, and a poem which I wrote not long ago. Thus, there are also butterflies, flowers and heart-shaped papers. (omg, what happened to me..) All these wrapped, finally, with a ribbon. It’s not much, but I hope you love it. And of course, besides the t-shirt (yesh, i had my perfume on it, hehe) - there's a lil surprise in there too (;

Looking back, I can’t believe so much time has passed, from that first moment we met. And as I look back upon each moment, there is nothing that I regret.

You are so much better than any dream. A mere thought of you protects me, wrapping me in warmth. There’s just something about you, maybe it’s just the way you look at me. And every time i look at you, my heart flutters. You make me laugh, you make me smile. And it’s true, I love smiling when it’s with you (no matter how much my jaw would hurt :P) Most of all, you make me happy.

You make me feel something. Something warm, and safe; something comfortable, and secure – in being loved and in love with you. You make me feel indescribably beautiful. Love, my moments spent with you are truly amazing.

At last, Ill wrap this up by telling you – I will love you as long as I live. With all of my heart, my soul, my everything; always.



I love you, Don Henning.
Happy Birthday




© Abbie Lyann Joseph Leong




p.s., sorry i woke you up x)
xoxo

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

They're so pretty, i must have them!

Listening to :
Everything You Want by Vertical Horizon




can someone pls buy these for me! *shows puppy face*
i would buy em' myself, trust me, i would. but im currently out of cash. grrr.







pretty right?




i want this so terribly! it'll match my tinker bell earrings.
look, it has stars too! *wtf?*



just click on this link here, Twinkle Collection to purchase.




oh please, pretty please.




countdown : 12 more days!
xoxo

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Youre my one distance star, shinning bright for me.

Listening to :
Victim by Eighteen Visions




20th January 2010







Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me

Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me

Yeah, you picked me





I Love You, Don Henning.




xoxo

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Things are gonna be different this year, ill make it be.

Listening to :
Slow Me Down by Emmy Rossum




guess what i have! hehee.






thanks for the pressies :)





countdown : 19 more days!
xoxo

I'll break your heart

Listening to :
Heart-Shaped Glasses (When the Heart Guides the Hand) by Marilyn Manson








Thoughts being filled and I can't stand it
You're in my head, and I need you out.
I can't go on like this forever.
It makes me want to scream and shout.





im hating the way i feel bout you,
im hating that you turned out to be someone you said youre not.
hunney, im gonna smile and laugh with you
and youre gonna love me.


and once i have you under control,
ill break your heart.
just so youll know how it feels like.


revenge is sweet.




xoxo

Friday, January 15, 2010

You're a part of me that i dont wanna see..

Listening to :
Forget It by Breaking Benjamin








it's all coming back again; he's back.




xoxo

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Exam results, semester 1.

Listening to :
Every You, Every Me by Placebo





so yeah, exam results for the 1st semester intake 07/08 came out today. and i managed to get..




Communication English, B+
Advertising Principles, C+
Computer Graphics, C+
Creative Thinking, B
Mass Communication, C+
Presentation Skills, C+




i could have done better.
i thought i would be getting an A for Communication English and at least a B for Computer Graphics, but oh wells.
ill do better the next time :)





xoxo

Sunday, January 10, 2010

If it wasnt for you, i'd never be who i am.

Listening to :
Salt In Our Wounds by HIM







why is he there and not here?
why am i here and not there?
why now and not then? why now and not later?




xoxo

Friday, January 8, 2010

Birthday presents i'd like to have

Listening to :
Where The Lines Overlap by Paramore




[edited:20/1/10]



im gonna be 8teen in a months' time (boo..), and there's nothing i can do to stay 7teen forever.
so wtv, here are the 18 things i'd like to receive from anyone of you :P





birthday cake :)





im itching over biker jackets! it's so me! hahaha





more hoodies, pls :)





mini dress





i need a handbag! the one im currently using, broke D:





ill go all soft over daisies (;





sunglasses





Olympus PEN E-P1 :D :D :D





Flowerbomb by Viktor and Rolf. i would die for this!





dont ask, but i wanna have this (;





I need a new one D: my wallet broke too.





soft toys





PURPLE helium balloons (;





lollipops, candies, or chocolate.





Baskin Robbins' or Häagen-Dazs' ice cream!





Accessories.
be it whichever - earrings, necklace, bracelet, or funky cool belly ring like the scorpion below :P







cupcakes! yumms :)





birthday card, with a personal note (;





pick one :)




xoxo