I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

2012

Listening to :
Boys And Girls by Pixie Lott




so, our semester break has started and when i return to college again, ill be introduced to another group of mates. meanwhile, thinking bout this. im really, seriously, completely, gonna miss my 1st sem classmates!




Aeries

i treat her like a sister :) always getting me worried, but i know she's always strong.




Ashley

first girl i talked to during our july intake, and im glad i did :)




Azrin

crazy dude, who's driving skills is worse than mine :P




Chee Ho

'Self praise is no praise'
same birth date, got quite a few in common. e.g., taste in music ;)
i cant wait to celebrate our birthday!





Chi Mei

this girl is really good in computer graphic, something im not good in :P




Chong Kit

the first guy i talked to during our july intake. up until now, i still love bullying him ;)




Danial

you have no idea how happy i was to find a white guy in our class :P hahahahahaha
always caring, and thoughtful.
btw, you/me still owe each other a yumcha session. heh




Dustin

we love to dance! ;) thats something, yo. plus, we're atheist buddies.




Eddy

The red head. need i say more? :P





Lai Yee

i gotta admit, i was afraid when she forcefully told me to swallow a sushi whole, ahahha.




Feline

purple's her favourite colour too! :D






Harison

im sorry, but you deserve an extra picture of yourself. hahhahaha




Ian

silly, yet fun.
someone who isnt shy to shout 'penis' (hint: 500 Days of Summer) numerous times at my neighborhood's park.
besides that, i enjoyed watching 50 First Dates with him :)

lousy boyfriend :P





John Reuben

i always wanted to pinch his cheeks, but never got the chance too. lol




Jules

always there - to witness my embarrassing, silliest, craziest, stupid, sad and happy moments :)
someone who knows my deepest, darkest secrets ;)

besides that, i enjoy teasing him and telling him cheesy lines.

P.S., dear me, he knows where im most tickled.





Kanages

im sure i wasnt shocked when i found out she speaks mandarin. damn, i suck :P
(gotta brush up on my mandarin)





Madeline

the shy, curious, and helpful :)




Marcus

silly boy, always worrying that ill beat him in class presentations :P hahahahah




Michael

somehow, he's the only one im pleased to receive complements from :)




Nicol

tiny, but scary :P i thought i was good at debating, but i was wrong :D




Rachel

i like her hugs, pretty smiles :)
thanks so much for helping me when i fell sick.





Roy

im really glad we hit on a good start. someone i grew close to and eventually, became my brother :)

always there to give harsh, honest opinions or advices.
and silly faces to me laugh :)





Teri

my one and only darling! hehehehehe.




Tony

he has given me an image, well, images - that ill never, ever forget.
dont judge him, cause he's more than meets the eyes :)





Yvonne

always smiling. thanks so much for lending me your jacket. lol




i didnt write much, cause by heart, you know there's more. thanks so much for all the wonderful times youve given me.






always a team :)






memorable birthday surprises.




games, assignment, presentations.






heart-felt moments








thank you for everything and so much more.




xoxo

Friday, December 18, 2009

Rain down on me

Listening to :
Rain down on me by Kane







please, stop hurting me.







xoxo

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I hate myself

Listening to :
Our Diabolika Rapture by HIM




I hate myself and want to die
I question life, and I ask why?
This falsehood always makes me cry
How can existence be a lie?


I travel through the maze of life
Through the bleeding, and the strife
Along with me, I bring a knife
Incase I need to end my life


Or, perhaps if it need be,
The knife could find a use with me.
I can draw two pretty lines,
Two pretty lines, that look like vines,
As I remember the good times.


Now I can feel from up high,
Drops of water, from the sky.
As I look up, I see the rain,
The rain to wash away my pain.


From sad lines, or rather vines,
Comes rushing, gushing, deep red blood,
The blood that ends up in the mud.
Whilst my sorrows wash away,
I realize its my last day.


As my vision narrows in,
I ask myself, is this a sin?
A puddle, growing by my feet,
Soon my heart will cease to beat.


My balance failing, vision ailing,
Now I spear the spirits wailing.
Down I fall, beside the wall,
And I slouch again and crawl,


Now i feel death creeping in,
A place before i've never been.
I then cry, blindly ask why?
I hate myself and want to die.




xoxo

Monday, December 7, 2009

Love once inside my heart, now lay in your hands.

Listening to :
Hella Good by No Doubt




it's the way he brightens up my gloomy days, it's the way he makes me smile;
the way he makes me happy.

it's the way he smiles, the way he laughs;
it's also the way he frowns.

it's the way he eats, it's the way he drinks
- it's the way he's always hungry!

it's the way he yawns, it's the way he sleeps.

it's the way he talks, it's the way he whispers.

it's the way he blows kisses my way,
it's the way he expects em' back, too.

it's the way he kisses my forehead,
it's the way he bites my lips.

it's the way he touches me,
it's the way he makes me feel safe and warm.

it's the promises he keeps,
it's the dreams he makes come true.

it's the way he cares, the way he misses,
it's the way he loves me, too.


it's the way you make me feel, it's the way i fall in love with you.



© Abbie Lyann Joseph Leong




xoxo

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

I like you - but, not entirely.

Listening to ;
Listen To Your Heart by DHT




i like you, alot.
but i dont



hey, i really like you.
thanksyou



i actually really like you.
you look nice today



i like you, we should get together.
ill break your heart



i like you, like more than a friend.
cool, cause i consider you as my best friend



i like you, really.
no thanks



i like you
i love you too




xoxo

Saturday, November 28, 2009

iloveyou

Listening to ;
Carter 2 U by Destiny's Child




No matter how long the time and how far the distance,
i will never lose hope but always believes in the promise of our love because darling, i am truly in love with you.







xoxo

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I'll wait, for how ever long it takes..

Listening to :
Snake Devil by Scary Kids Scaring Kids




Even if my body breaks, even if my heart is torn,
The promise to protect you,

that promise will eternally be the same.

Nothing can stop me from loving you.



The reason why I breathe is you,
The reason why I sing is you,

The reason why I live on is you,

Years will come and years will go.



Nothing can stop me from loving you.
The reason why I run is you,

The reason why I dance is you,

The reason why I live on is you.





xoxo

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

I want to stop breathing..

Listening to :
CrushCrushCrush by Paramore




Tears of fear streaming
Words of sorrow screaming
Emotions live on killing
What's the point in believing?

Life has no meaning
Dreams are only teasing
I cant take all the deceiving
I want to stop breathing

There's no point in living
I start crying
I try praying
Again, nobody's listening

Now im looking
For a way out of thinking
Please stop me from breathing
Im no longer believing

Im remembering
How no one was listening
Tear of fear and sorrow streaming
Emotions screaming
Words and thought killing
What's the point in believing?


I want to stop breathing




written by K.D. Darling
xoxo

And when im hurting..

Listening to :
Turn It Off by Paramore




It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.

It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."

It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.

It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.

It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.

It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.

It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.

It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.



It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.

It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.

It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.

It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.

It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.

It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.

It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.

It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.



If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.

If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.

If only you'd hold me, without asking why.

If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.



But it's the easy roads that are most often taken.

And so I hurt alone
.




written by Jo A. Witt
xoxo

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Take me away, to a sweet escape..

Listening to :
Endless Sacrifice by Dream Theater







i said im fine, but really, im not.
i wish i could fly away - just like a butterfly..




xoxo

Monday, October 26, 2009

My sweet 666

Listening to :
Tik Tok by KE$HA







people are saying that my drawing is scary. is it really? D:
i think its pretty comforting looking at those faces, but i do think my ugly face is scary. wtf, aha.




xoxo

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Cause when I leave for the night, I aint coming back.










Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy
(Hey, what up girl?)
Put my glasses on, Im out the door - Im gonna hit this city (Lets go)
Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack
Cause when I leave for the night, I aint coming back
Im talking - pedicure on our toes, toes
Trying on all our clothes, clothes
Boys blowing up our phones, phones
Drop-toping, playing our favorite cds
Pulling up to the parties
Trying to get a little bit tipsy


[CHORUS]
Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the click
But the party dont stop
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh

Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the click
But the party dont stop
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh


Aint got a care in world, but got plenty of beer
Aint got no money in my pocket, but Im already here
Now, the dudes are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Mick Jagger
Im talking about - everybody getting crunk, crunk
Boys trying to touch my junk, junk
Gonna smack him if he getting too drunk, drunk
Now, now - we goin til they kick us out, out
Or the police shut us down, down
Police shut us down, down
Po-po shut us -


Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the click
But the party dont stop
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh

Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the click
But the party dont stop
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh


DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
You got me now
You gotta that sound
Yea, you got me

DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
Get your hands up
Put your hands up
No, the party dont stop until I walk in





xoxo

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Computer Graphics

Listening to :
Wonderwall by Oasis




these are the assignments ive done for now..



Illustrator











Hayley Williams :)



Photoshop





i like this the best :)












what do you think?




xoxo

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Happy Birthday Mumzy!

Listening to :
One Real Thing by Skillet





pretty pretty mom :)











xoxo

Unspoken

Listening to :
Decode by Paramore







it took me a long while to accept that we're through. how did i lose you?






xoxo

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

And i miss you, too.

Listening to :
La Tortura (Shaketon Remix) by Shakira















xoxo