I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

imma miss high skewl

listening to :
LoveGame by Lady Gaga

im really starting to miss high skewl D:
well, not yet, at least.
i dont miss the people, for sure. except for a few exceptional frens..

should have gotten myself into more trouble..
more memories to remind myself of, more mistakes to learn from..
should have blown up the church, or something. but its never too late to do anything right? hmm, i should plan something. heh

anyways.. the main point of this post is that..

went to ou after skewl to pamper myself with manicure and hung out with voonie. carissa was supposed to join, but she couldnt make it :(
so it was...
manicure, new shoes, window shopping, MODA fashion show, puppies and such.

*look! the golden retriever and the chihuahua are both french kissing xD*

after that, met up with ujin, marc, ryan, azuri, max and some of their frens. anyways, very lazy to blog adi, so yah. more pictures coming soon!

jin, thanks for the ride home :)


Tuesday, April 28, 2009

WuShu Night pt.2

refer to WuShu Night pt.1 for pictures.


OH OH! watch this one!

and this one too!



listening to :
Missing Pieces by O.A.R.

*picture no longer available*

i hate to admit.. but he's right.


Monday, April 27, 2009

I only have eyes for you

by : The Flamingos

My love must be a kind of blind love
I can't see anyone but you.

Are the stars out tonight?
I don't know if it's cloudy or bright
I Only Have Eyes For You, Dear.

The moon maybe high
but I can't see a thing in the sky,
'Cause I Only Have Eyes For You.

I don't know if we're in a garden,
or on a crowded avenue.

You are here
So am I

Maybe millions of people go by,
but they all disappear from view.
And I Only Have Eyes For You.


Sunday, April 26, 2009

WuShu Night pt.1

@ Catholic High School

25th April 2009

yeaps, we go the front side. hehe

the stage

during the end of the performance

i must say, the performances were beyond awesome (:

videos will be on the next upcoming post.

P.S., by the time Callie was on stage, my camera ran out of battery =( and so, i was not able to record her and the rest of the performances.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

becoming insane

Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I wont get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain to me the reason why Im so much in pain

- Infected Mushroom


Thursday, April 23, 2009

told you this was a bad idea

listening to :
Suicide Note by Disagree

SEE!!!! this is where i end up!! *slaps myself on the face, countless times*

why.....! (x1000)

my mind tells me to study/sleep.
but my instincts pulled me away from my favourite history book, and to this bloody laptop.

this is torture! torture i tell you! my laptop practically serenaded me.

okay. i shall discharge myself. now.
im serious.

mark my words. (wtf?)


Wednesday, April 22, 2009

yay baby! my laptop's fixed! =3

listening to :
But Then I Got High by AfroMan

omg weih, its been too long since i was able to use my own laptop.

why my mum have to get my laptop fixed so soon?!
exams just started this week!!
wtf am i doing online? i should be re-studying the events of international collapse for tmr's papers.

bad timing. haihs. i wont be back online very soon tho.

owels.. i better get back on my studies now.
have a nice week ya'll.


Monday, April 20, 2009

my heart goes *BANG*

this is it! countdown's over! *breathe, girl, breathe*
the big day is today!!! PART 1!

(its Part 1 cause the exams will be in skewl, it'll be part 2 later on in british council on 13th May.)



Wednesday, April 15, 2009

i love you, always and forever...

Feels like, I'm standing in a timeless dream
Of light mists, of pale amber rose
Feels like, I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
Touching, discovering you

Those days, of warm rains come rushing back to me
Miles of windless, summer night air
Secret moments, shared in the heat of the afternoon
Out of the stillness, soft spoken words

I love you, always forever
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you

I love you, always forever
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you

You've got, the most unbelievable blue eyes I've ever seen
You've got, me almost melt away
As we lay there, under a blue sky with pure white stars
Exotic sweetness, a magical time


Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and everywhere and everything

Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and everywhere and everything

Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and everywhere and everything



Friday, April 10, 2009



Wednesday, April 8, 2009


exams' moved forward a week earlier than the original date!!!
its now on the 20th April!

12 more days!

P.S., sorry if ive not been replying smses/emails, or returning calls.
im really busy with studies.


Sunday, April 5, 2009

i can do it! i know i can!

oh damn...
21 friggin more days!

im virtually panicking even tho this is a scheduled post. hahahah


Friday, April 3, 2009


i have no idea what to say right now.
but here's something tho..

mom : im going to Bangkok in an hour.
me : why?
mom : your granfather just passed away.
me : i thought he passed away years ago???
mom : your real grandfather.

Rest In Peace

till now, i have no idea whats going on. whats the real story and such. i have a uncle (my mom's brother) in Thailand whom ive never heard of till today. everything relating to my mom is always a mystery.


Wednesday, April 1, 2009

i can feel the heat

first of, Happy April's Fools!!

i am shaking from top to bottom, left to right.

my exams wont be in May anymore, it'll be on the fourth week of April!
25 more days!

my heartbeat is currently racing like a mad horse.
what if i dont do well? D:

p.s., this is a scheduled post.