Rest In Peace, Uncle Allen.

Listening to :
I Miss You by Jamestown Story

7th May 2010



it took me some time to digest the news. i wasnt having much out of that day and i didnt want to believe what i heard.
i hope youre in a better place now. ill remember you, i miss you.




Rest In Peace

Donald Allen Bertram Joseph

xoxo

You're every inch of my soul

Listening to :

Hurricane by 30 Seconds to Mars

ive had my bad days, but nothing compares to the day i lost you.


rotten luck, bring in your best shot.
cause the more i hurt, the stronger ill be.

xoxo

Im alright, im gonna make it, even if i gotta fake it. Im alright.

Listening to :

Tea Party by Kerli

1st, ive been losing alot of my things. it keeps disappearing! or maybe i just misplaced them elsewhere when i bring them along when i go out. meh.
2nd, i got into a car incident yesterday. im alright, no injury.
3rd, mom's been throwing tantrum on me again for no apparent reason.
4rd, while i was about to hand in my assignment, i realized i lost my thumbdrive. apparently it dropped when i accidentally bumped to someone, i think.

5th, is yet to come.. whatever it is, gimme your best shot!

everything doesnt seem to go right anymore. im agitated even to a slight of things! i cant take anymore rants of bullshit that comes my way. i want it to stop. cause, if it doesnt, i might lose my mind. also, ive been trying really hard to get some sleep lately but i cant seem to.

im always thinking. and ive been thinking way too much.

but i cant seem to know what exactly, cause when i close my eyes and keep quiet for one moment; everything of past events' and somewhat or so keeps rushing into my mind.

i feel like, there's no air left for me to breathe.

everything i touch goes wrong, everything i do goes astray; everything i ever loved, destroyed.
i need all of this to stop, cause i cant bear any more tears.


i need to get out.

xoxo

Unspoken

Listening to :
Decode by Paramore

it took me a long while to accept that we're through. how did i lose you?

xoxo

I thought ill be fine without you... but i was wrong

Listening to:

I Can't Catch You by Sixpence None The Richer

you once said youll be there in times of need. you said youll do your best.
you said you love me.
but how would i know you would leave me in the end?




im sorry, im sorry for not giving my full attention. portia, marcus, i miss you. but although we couldnt make our friendship work, ill keep the good ol' memories with me. memories spent with the both of you has paid me well, the good and the bad.
i wish i could take it all back. i wish i cared more. i wish i was there.
i wish i knew the right words to say to make our friendship stay.

xoxo

Sincere thanks

Listening to:
Kiss Me by Sixpence None The Richer

ive not been feeling well for a few days, and in the middle of class of this recent monday. i encountered a muscle pull during class, it has something to do with the muscle nerves and such. which explains why i was having fever but yet my body was shivering.


thanks Teri, Rachel and Ian for helping, and taking care of me. and the rest of my college mates, you guys are the best and i couldnt have been feeling better now without your help. sorry for freaking you guys out.
also, thanks to Marc Wong for taking care of me before and after i was home. he stayed at my place till late to look after me. thanks alot Marc, and ill seriously miss you when you leave.

xoxo